Live, in fact have a lot of ways

When see the medical treatment that herself brings transferring to and lying between the form, this doctor does not have too great excitement or notice, just the routine is arranged dully hospitalized to have a thorough examination and fixing the talksly.
The talks are the set time, from every Tuesday 3 o'clock in the afternoon to 50 past 3. She comes into the doctor's office, a completely strange environment, and the towering bookshelf is divided into the serious and loftiness enclosed, as soon as she hardly dares to have a look around slightly more, she bows the head shily.
Just describe as on her medical records: Shy, extreme introversion, talk difficult, have serious self-imposed inclination, suspect, have illusion covered up to defend or vainly hope.
Though low to droop head while being low, can see fat cheeks there are obvious freckles slightly. This doctor meeting newly opens one's mouth, ask she moves it is difficult to suit. She shakes the head hanging low, sparrow's generally slight sound, answers briefly: No.
In day later on, this doctor finds for her, the expression written originally is far much easier than to talk. He requires her to begin to write at will, writes down any characters that she thinks of on any convenient paper at will.
Her strokes of a Chinese character are very very thin, nearly crowd together shrinking. Strenuous slightly when anyone read, could clear that distinguish the meaning among them. Especially her choice of words, very sharp, we can say the ability to express is too abstract, can be said to be poesy very much too.
Later on the doctor understood her growth slowly. She grew up in the rigorous village of a piece of morals originally, there, perhaps it was the cause with arduous life, it is intrepid that everyone seems very much and yes vitality.
She but just the opposite, drawn back even if timid extremely at home while as a child, even would rather laugh at than dare to go out easily. Father often sighs in front of her, worried about the future possible experience, or some chattered, say directly how this child can be so abnormal.
Abnormal? She was hearing while as a child, had believed gradually too oneself was abnormal. In the campus of the primary school, the classmates become the friend who can chat very easily, and she wants to become one very much, can be on not knowing how to open one's mouth. In the past go to school, family less to with whom her talk, seem to serious problems language or pronunciation to assert her,etc.. Family sigh or criticize just, expect, have a chat a few words with her at all times. Then the school age has arrived, she is sent to a more strange environment, by contrast with classmates, the intensity that nearly babbles out one's first speech sounds. She thinks, she is really abnormal.
When being the most young, the diagnosis that the doctor gives to her is self-closing disease; Later, reached the special school, diagnosed as melancholia too. Later on, the fragile nerve collapsed at last, she lived in the long-term sanatorium, there is diagnosis of a schizophrenia.
And her the same panic, has not lightened, has never increased, accept various strange treatments quietly.
Parents seem to forget her existence. At first, still come to look about from afar every month, later on even half a year will not come once. Just like since childhood, 4 siblings have always heard father's bicycle sound, will run out of and pester father who has just come off duty. My father is a magician, dart back riding two wheels from the distant place, still change the large coarse candy of one out from black pocket conveniently. Just, it is not enough to divide sometimes, she at the end always stands to stretch out hands, failed.
To school in house, from studying to go to work, she except enclosing and enclosing independence. Until once being depressed, the thought of committing suicide illegallies occupy and goes to pester in mind again. She has written with the teacher that a letter worships most for oneself.
Since everybody thinks she is a strange person, always describe some extremely trifling mood that can't bear in some strange wordings, it scarcelies know what one has said to just assert. Family understand idea of her, classmate afford to find out even if teacher that oneself worship most first impressions are strongest even either, call one's own doctor's friends together to visit her in all right heart. This is the reason why she lives in the insane asylum.
Furnishing some overdue magazines in the hospital, it is that the mercy personage donated in the society. Are full of teaching people how to cook a tailor, how to become fair maiden's; Some discuss the happy life of some movie stars and singers in Hollywood; Some write some abstruse poesy or novel. She oneself like a bit, ignorant and boring into hospital, start writing contribution.
Have never expected those are at home, in the school or in the hospital, always considered as the characters scarcelying know what one has said, unexpectedly publish in the first-class literature magazine.
In fact the doctor of the hospital is a bit awkward, cancel some quickly and relatively have infringing therapeutic method, begin talk to pick up one's ears her, distinguish, miss any metaphor or signify carefully. Family felt a bit proud, suddenly found too there was such a daughter originally in one's own family. Even the neighbour in the small town can't ask believing in former days: Writer getting this great literature award, is that little odd girl that year?
She has left hospital, and has relied on the scholarship and gone abroad.
She comes to Britain, register taking one's own medical case history to spiritual medical science most famous Maudsly hospital voluntarily. In this way, in fixed talk, pass for two years unconsciously, it has proved the medical certificate without disease that the doctor of British psychiatric department has opened one cautiously.